Expectations

Today I sit in front of my laptop thinking what to write thinking what to start with when there is so much to pour out from my mind yet i cannot figure out where to start from ...

Sometimes the mind is blank yet so occupied that it becomes difficult to decipher what is that what we wanna concentrate on ...

It is not something that I am experiencing alone .. it is what i understand most of us occupied in the daily monotonous routine are going through .....but somewhere deep down there a turbulence of expectations , personal professional, by ourselves , by others.

While writing this blog there was another thing giving me company - my 10 pm companion Grey's anatomy and this perfect quote at the right moment falls into my ears 

"Life is not a spectator sport. Win, loose or draw the game is on. So go ahead ...argue with the refree, change the rules, cheat a little, take a break and tend to your wounds. Play, hard, play fast ...play loose and free. Play as if there's no tomorrow .boundaries dont keep people out they fence you in. Life is messy, that's how we're made. So you can waste your life drawing lines or you can live crossing them"

communication: it’s the first thing we really learn in life. yet , the funny thing is , once we grow up , learn our words and really start talking , it becomes harder to know what to say and how to convey , or how to ask for what we really need . it was sometimes so easy when we were kids . There was not a fear to project our thoughts without any hesitation , even though it was assisted by our animated talks .

But as we grow up we start living a life where a self responsibility to prove oneself in this world

this inspires aspires me a lot yet still the word expectations is like a hope which can either make you shine with joy when fulfilled but makes you underneath a deep fear of failing . With the word expectation come a deep feeling of responsibility and a fear to live upto that vision that other see in you , and to perform.